“Quietly go to work on your own self-awareness. If you want to awaken all of humanity, then awaken all of yourself. If you want to eliminate the suffering in the world, then eliminate all that is dark and negative in yourself. Truly, the greatest gift you have to give is that of your own self-transformation.”
~Hua hu Ching: The Unknown Teachings of Lao Tzu


File_000Big subject! I learn more about what love is each day. The big ones in my life right now are quite different in how they feel. My love for my daughter is a deep un-moving love that reaches deep into my bones. I know this love will be there forever, she is a part of me and my heart and this will never change.

The other love is far more delicate, this love is a gift that needs to be given tender care, space to grow and change, not smothered or held too tightly, for if you do it might get damaged or prevented from becoming all that it might be. I treasure this love and I am trying to honour its beauty as best I can.

I think love begins with the courage to open up your heart. Nurture your own heart first, love all that you are and have been, forgive yourself and the people in your past and you will find the freedom to give and receive more love in your present. The more you can do this the more respect you have for love and healing.

Love is an infinite resource, no matter how much love you give there will always be more in your heart.


Mandala with colour!

 Fancied trying out some new watercolours I bought and it was great fun! I had trouble with my usual pens drawings on top so had to use a regular felt pen and have no idea how long the design will last.

I’ve been thinking about what I’d like to do next and I’d like to go bigger! I’d love to do a super size mandala at some point as well. 


Mandala – drawing meditation

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Wanted to share a mandala I drew a while back. I felt inspired to draw and it became a meditation in designing as I wanted there to be eight petals to signify the 8 limbs of yoga, Yama (Ahimsa, Satya, Asteya, Brahmacharya, Aparigraha), Niyama (Saucha, Samtosa, Tapas, Svadhyaya, Isvara pranidhana), Asana, Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, Dhyana and Samadhi.

I’ll try to explain these 8 limbs further as I work through them…


2015-10-11 08.29.57Here is another of the cards I made to take to my yoga training as a note to my inspirations. This is the description:

Siddhartha is perhaps the most important and compelling moral allegory our troubled century has produced. Integrating Eastern and Western spiritual traditions with psychoanalysis and philosophy, this strangely simple tale, written with a deep and moving empathy for humanity, has touched the lives of millions since its original publication in 1922. Set in India, Siddhartha is the story of a young Brahmin’s search for ultimate reality after meeting with the Buddha. His quest takes him from a life of decadence to asceticism, from the illusory joys of sensual love with a beautiful courtesan, and of wealth and fame, to the painful struggles with his son and the ultimate wisdom of renunciation.

It takes you on a journey that I found hard to put down and inspired so much thought that i’d definitely suggest you read it.

The Places That Scare You

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I made this to take to my yoga training class yesterday and thought i’d share with you as a book recommendation. It is a guide to opening your heart to fear, allowing space for things that may have been buried deep inside, things you may not even know are there. I started reading it thinking it wouldn’t have a huge affect on me as I don’t have anything deep dark secrets that need light shining on them, however you come to realise that there may not be any big fears or secrets but there can be lots of little hidden thoughts and worries that you didn’t know were there.

Pema Chödrön has written many books and I would recommend having a look at all her book titles and see which one speaks to you now.

Finding Peace

On a good day peace is very much present and I don’t need to look far to find it, however on a bad day it is hard to see past the thoughts and fog.

I have tried many ways to overcome this fog, and usually by acknowledging it as simply this, a temporary fog, I can work to clear it. On some occasions the fog can last for a while, and can reach so deep that it can cloud my judgement and it can be quite hard to realise that it is a temporary fog as opposed to a deep seated issue. Over time I have been working to acknowledge the beginnings of a fog and trying to find peace within these moments, accepting the bad with the good can be tough though.

Another approach is to bring myself back into the present moment, as I often let my thoughts drift into the future, imagining where i’d like to be, but if I do this while in a negative space these thoughts of future often find obstacles, problems and difficulties.

The best way for me to bring myself back into the present moment is to find a quiet place to sit down, close my eyes and take some deep relaxing breaths. I then acknowledge if my body is feeling tense and then relax any tension I feel. At this point the thoughts often come back, so I acknowledge them and move them aside. Sometimes I work through these thoughts a little, but if I get caught in them too long I move them away and bring myself back into the present moment.

Finding peace in positive and negative situations can be hard at times, and i’m still learning about how I can do this and it is getting easier the more I practice.

Starting where I am…

So here I am writing my first post. I felt I could document my journey and by doing so help digest my learnings and possibly help others with my experiences.

I’m due to start a yoga teacher training course in September and i’m equal parts excited and scared. I’m excited as I love yoga in all its forms, it speaks to me and i’ve made more sense of this life since practicing its teachings. I’m scared because I know that this training has the potential to change everything. The teacher said the course is transformational and I believe her. In many ways I hope it is, as i’m ready to integrate yoga into my life like never before. I also hope that by going down this path I might have a positive affect on the people around me.

I am also hoping to share my creativity and inspirations with you, I have a love of Mandalas, nature and the beauty that surrounds us.

Off I go!